Originally, I was planning to post the lyrics to a song Dan wrote for me. Let me take you back...
February 14, 2001. Dan was my new Valentine. We had been dating for approximately 1 month. I think I already knew how I felt about him. Meaning I already loved him, and I already knew we would get married.
I thought I would take my time, not scare him off, wait until we'd been dating at least 2 or 3 months to let him in on my secret. I hope you can sense my sarcasm. In reality, I was barely 19 and IN LOVE. And it turned out, so was Dan, or at least so I thought.
He gave me a stuffed dog that sang "Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch, I can't help myself. I love you and nobody else!" See, Dan did love me! And then he gave me a card that said something else about love, I'm sure. I was really reading into everything. You have to pay attention to details when you're trying to figure out how your new boyfriend feels about you. And so far all signs pointed to LOVE! Hooray!

Then he busted out his acoustic guitar to play a little ditty he wrote just for me! And this is where the lyrics come in...it seems that over time the exact words have slipped my mind. I was a little sheepish to ask Dan to remind me but it turns out he can't remember them either. We have a tape recording of it somewhere, we just don't know where at the moment. But here is our best attempt at the chorus which will work just fine for this story.
"I'm in love with the girl from everywhere,
I like to smell her long brown hair,
I want to hug Elise like a grizzly bear,
Yeah, I want to hug Elise like a grizzly bear"
I didn't really notice that he was comparing me to a bear, all I heard was "I'm in love". Yes! The words were right out of his own mouth. I was really excited and felt completely safe saying, "I love you, Dan" that night as we said goodbye. He looked a bit like a deer in the headlights, but he said, "I love you, too".
The next night as we were saying goodbye at my door I said, "I love you." And you know what he said? Nothing! He just stared at me and then probably just said "goodnight" and he for sure didn't say "I love you" back. What?!
I got it. I decided that I was never going to say it first again. And by the way, I was a little bit mad, but I didn't say anything. About a month later on my couch he finally said it, on his very own, immediately followed by a conversation about what went wrong. He was worried because he was still a little unsure about being in LOVE at Valentine's day. But I questioned why then would he give me a card, and a dog, and write a song all declaring love if he was still just "in like" with me? "What?" he asked, "That card said I love you? And I really didn't know what song the dog was singing, and your song...the words just fit better." New boyfriends, it turns out don't always pay attention to the details.

And just for fun, here is a poem I wrote for Dan the summer we were apart before we got married. We still weren't engaged, despite my proposals, but we were both admittedly in love. Oh yeah, I was working at The Sweet Factory (candy store) in the mall when I wrote this.

Candy Man
You'd think my sweet tooth
could be satisfied,
by this candy store i work in,
where goodies abide.
Feed any desire
at the drop of a hat.
-Good thing what i'm craving
can't make me fat.
But too bad this candy store
will never supply
that thing so addictive
that without it I'd die.
Because my sweet tooth
has been captured for life,
an attachment so strong
I'd be his wife.
He feeds my desires
more than anyone can.
He's my treat and my weakness,
my goody is Dan.
I love you, Dan! Will you still be my Valentine?
Happy Valentine's Day to all of you my friends and family! I love you!
Edited to add that looking back I really did admire Dan for not saying "I love you" back when he didn't mean it (besides actual V day, cause he didn't want it to stink). This post was not meant to make him look bad. He looks good, very good.